Tuesday, July 12, 2005

Awaken
You see me as i walk along these halls.
The floor feels cold, darkened by my long absence.
No one waits for me, and I look in the mirror,
to welcome myself home.

Hi, i know it's been a long time since i blogged, but i was just lazy.
What do you think about the new skin?
I kinda like it.

Things have been strange. Today i started by waking up usually early and not feel sleepy, then I go to school and the morning passes by so fast, like i was awake. In the after noon Tan lye hwa din get all her homework pieces in, thus she didn't teach. What a great time to catch up with math homework. Thanks miss tan.

I came home, and heard that my musix teacher just ended his Gum operation, thus he couldn't come to teach, so i watched Friends for a while and played Dota, 2 games where we didn't get past lvl 10 cos of stupid quitters. CURSE THEM.

Then i couldn't stand the sight of the biiig big mess in my room so i cleared it all up.
I went for my dinner, came back up and chAtted for a while. Suddenly my mother comes in, yells at me, saying how hopeless i am, how ....

"For he shall not yield until you have gained his trust." -Eva Shan

And i shall not say.

Why does my life end up so "well"? Does God hate me? is that it? i have not seen anything good happen at all recently. Does God even exist? Or is he a figment of human imagination?

Now i do not wish to speak. Leave me alone, or paddle the river of eternal suffering.

- --| Kyros |-- wasn't missed at 3:03 PM

darkness.for.words

clipped.wings

Felix Kyros Ang Mao Ler
Banished for 17 years now
Left the Shimmering Lights Behind
Dark Angel
Twelth, of Twelth
Suffering the curse of humanity
Lust for blood

deep.desires
1. Human Rejection
2. Time
3. Freedom
4. To Leave this Cursed Land
5. My Soul
6. My Sanity (I Got This Back)
7. Of Wisdom and Lightworks

heart.felt
Lacuna Coil
Within Temptation
Evanescence
Nightwish
Elfen Lied
Epica
Death
Sorrow
Darkness
The Moon
Blood

heart.cursed
Humanity
Sunlight
Helplessness
Imcomprehension
Cruelty
Violence
Inequality

last.words
i still love you. i always have. i was banished from the light, to get caught in the middle. punished with insanity. death out of my grasp.
you never existed to care for me. you existed for me to care. and when i cried, nobody came. nobody alive. humanity is dead.
new humanity was recreated. and you punished me by making me part of it. i still cry. still nobody comes. nobody comes. nobody ever came.
and still i scream, torn apart in the battle in my own mind. the battle of two, the battle of three. nobody comes to help me, for i wish no human help.
what could humanity do but rip me further? locked in rotting flesh. destined to be punished. because of you. you who lies. you who never lived, and you who will never die.

over. ended.
all silent as the ticks of the halted hands.
i turn. i see.
the dances of grey havens, over the earth so cold
and sit, in the cries of a motherless child.

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