Curse things
Curse stomachs. Curse the inexistence of pills. Curse the chinese paper one. Curse Pheonix's death. Curse Chinese.
Lastly, Curse Myself to oblivion.
我死盯了。
星期一是华文O水尊考试。我还不会写水尊。
我真的很恨华文。 不要给我废话，什麽是我的母语。我现在说，不是我的母语。
凡怎（fan zen??)我星期一一踏进考场，我就会踏进那个装满了快乐天堂。那乐趣好像毒气，慢慢的杀死我。那里的天使，每个都拿着一把充满亮光的刀，刺我，刺我，不停的刺我。我的心，因为你，早已经死了。你的嘴巴有尖尖的牙齿把我的翼咬破。
你是地下的阳光，该死的阳光。
慢慢的杀了我。
走吧。再也不要回来。
走。
第一个和最后一个华文blog。
为了kyra.c的话，我现在会用华文写一张post.
-不在了-
我现在不要post了。kyra.c,你赢了！ 恭喜。
changed song again
my favourite song....
well, one of. =)
At the beginning
Watch it! Its really sweet!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IBP52JzUlVg
even more than "tong hua" which pwiffieriffies claims is REALLY SWEET. i almost can understand it tho!
ok to the important part. as you can see, i'm not like in my usual mood now, prob cos erm. i dunno. cos i stink. i hate being happy and i still am. how stupid is that.
ok gimmie a few seconds to get into my usual mood.
Your sight exists only to read these words, is it not.
As recently gone, and lifeth it shall remain.
The Science Fair competition presentation... went fairly well, though gabriel does not seem to fathom so. Un-more it went well.
My L1R5 score for prelims one, 24.
sigh. please accept my sorries at my current state. it has always been tradition, that i act unlike myself after things like... the last post... occur. i'll try to be myself more.
bye then.
He is not my father
He is no father of mine.
My father died a thousand years ago.
My blood flows out of the wounds
He is not my father.
My father is dead.
I HAVE NO FATHER.
HE IS NOT MY FATHER.
I DID NOTHING WRONG.
I WAS CURSED ON THE TWELTH OF TWELTH.
LET. ME. DIE.
Burn the cross. Kill the father. Forsake the child.
Reborn
yet once again my body has been cursed to life.
i ponder as to if the music should be relieved.
should it?
sigh.
I can't stand this fight.
leave me be now. shoo. i wont say it again
Song
Yes, I wrote this song.
Why is it midi-fied? 'Cos I din want anyone to hear my voice.
Don't I hate my lack of confidence.
Here are the lyrics, if you wish.
Family members have probably heard the original one. If you have not, well... tag. or smth.
My Sweet Lullaby
By: Kyros Ang
I will never forget the look on your face as we said goodbye.
The tiniest, softest tap, to break my soul in half…
Even now as I stand here,
Trying not to cry…
Even when I wish for it so,
You never let me die…
Let me die… Let me die… Let me die
Let me die… Let me die… Let me die
Screams around me
Screams of sorrow
Cries of pain
As I lie in this same place again
Nobody knows of my eternal wait for you
When you passed my heart flew with you
I wish to cry
Tears to wash my blood away
I wish to die
Or I will never see you again
Let me die… Let me die… Let me die…
Let me die… Let me die… Let me die…
I will never let you go… I will never let you go again
What am I to do now?
With nobody to miss.
What am I going to do
Without your eternal kiss.
Let me die… Let me die… Let me die
Let me die… Let me die… Let me die
Let me die… Let me die…
Let me die… Let me die… Let me die...
Rumors
They say Chinese results are out.
They say I have not passed.
Though it may seem a worthless attempt to excuse myself I must say it.
I never asked for this. I never wanted it.
It was forced unto me.
Claws sink deep into my skin, other end of the chain locked on a nevermoving pole of despair.
I never asked for it.
With one though I am lifted through the clouds up into the blood-red heavens, only to feel the pain of restriction.
I never wanted it.
Its claws sink deeper, blood forbidden from flowing, as pain echoes through my flesh.
I will never be free.
Until I am released, I will never be me.
For those simple of mind and sense of heart, read these words of knowledge they part.
"A hound forever caged beats never the strength of a puppy run wild."
And hear my cries for freedom.
I have said enough. Leave now. Leave me be. Leave me to my suffering.
Go. Shoo.
Big Omn
Big Omn? I'll explain.
Blogger
is
getting
On
my
nerves.
There.
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