.........you don't know how its like to be....Evanescent.........
This whole damned week was a quick surreal blur for even the strong-minded, lest be said about the weak.
seems like all the MSHS teachers want out of us are results. they expect us NOT to be sponges and absorb all their teachings, but then desire us sponges by squeezing us for results.
Damn them.
Lest Death Klaim all of them.
Ronson has been moved beside me. MGY moved in front, Markus Chan moved further infront.
Ronson hates his place. Hao Feng hates me. Ivan Ng hates my nattering about death. Andrew hates me too(ithink). Jason hates sizan, mshs hates eric gong gong, yihe hates evanescence, nick lu hates da CLTs too.
Hate is imperative. it builds the world. it destroys it. it controls it. it severs ties, it builds ties. pure hate can be powerful.
I have a loadful of homework to complete too. i cannot remember what it is. this week has been surreal. i cannot remember. i cannot remember. i cannot remember. maybe i am not supposed to remember. maybe i am.
"KOTOR II: The sith lords" is out. I got it.
Due to NCC i reached home extremely late for the past few days. my mum still wants me to work. WORK. everyone is evil. humans never understand.
thursday.....live range firing...... i did not get a marksmanship badge. who gives a damn though. it is but a badge in a small unit in a small defence force in a small country in a small continent in a small planet.
it is disregarded.
see the greater forces. the greater powers. life. and death. love and hate. power and weakness. intelligence and stupidity.
friday..... bukit timah hike. wasn't it great. best environment, best weather. to be alone by myself. nobody caring. nobody loving.
no body loves me.
love is weak.
hate is strong.
do not forget.
hate is strong
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