A little Note
Just to tell everyone HOW SUM 41 TOTALLY ROX!!!!!!
Sum 41- Open Your Eyes
Lately,I'm not quite myself.
Maybe, I do need some help.
Just my confusion,Trust my delusion.
Don't you,Regret you met me.
Go through,These steps to get me,
Back to where we start,
'Fore I fall apart.
If I could black out,It'd become so clear,
Standing face-to-face with everything I fear.
Watch so closely, but still I don't see.
As bad as it seems, a piece of mind I steal,
An ordinary life, But consequences real.
I'm past the point of reality.
Chorus:
This isn't me,
This isn't you,
When it's just everything we do.
Till you open up your eyes,and understand this isn't real.
This isn't me,
This isn't you,
This is everything but true,
Till we come to realize,
It's what we put each other through.
It's like a bad dream, Coming all so true,
Leaving me with nothing else left to do.
Now so helpless,I'm not so selfish.
Tell me,
How does it feel to have a face like that,
How does it feel to be replaced like that.
Now so faceless, Do you still feel?
This isn't me,
This isn't you,
When it's just everything we do.
Till you open up your eyes,
and understand this isn't real.
This isn't me,
This isn't you,
This is everything but true,
Till we come to realize,
It's what we put each other through.
It's hard to believe right now,This seems to be real.
Still phasing by this time,So why can't I wake up.
This isn't me,
This isn't you,
When it's just everything we do.
Till you open up your eyes,
and understand this isn't real.
This isn't me,
This isn't you,
This is everything but true,
Till we come to realize,
It's what we put each other through.
Rox eh.
Very busy no time to blog. Just go d/l da song!!!
Brain Fry?
Hmm... Yes I am abit sad-ish and wierd-ish.
Well, on Thursday night I was feeling abit unwellish, like rather warm, imean uncomfortably warm, so i took panadol and went to bed. early. full stop. ok all for thursday.
THEN, on friday morning at approximatly 2:07 am(yes i remember the clock) i woke up, shivering like a live fish thrown in a caudron of sizzling, simmering oil. without the heat. i woke up and shivered my way to the thermometer, took my temperature blah blah, around 38.8 degrees celsius. Then i shivered my way downstairs and took two pills of 500MG Paracetamol(panadol) then dragged my stuff out into the hall and slept there, where the temperature wasn't 16 degrees because of my crazy family. ok fine not crazy then. my fault too.
Ok so again. Friday morning, 6:58 am(i dunno why i remember da clock so well) i woke up shivering again, just not that bad(morning see). took my temperature and guess what?
a whoppping 40.1 degrees celsius.
how worried was i then. i pawed around, then tried to go back to sleep, but i coudn't so i went to try to watch some tv but i was burning, so i went upstairs and went downstairs again with some vcds. i watched for about a quarter hour until 8, then i finally decided to take a panadol. silly me. well it didn't work for about 53 minutes, then my temp went down to 38.3. dat felt good. awesomely good. soon my mum brought me to da doctors. i think i was a suspected dengue or hand-foot-mouth disease victim. i checked and i had 7/9 dengue symtoms, unlike the previous time when i had only 4/9. well i went home and went to my room, lay on the floor and fell alseep. just like that. until i woke up at 12:58(brandon called me), 3 hours from the time i had slept. tired eh. so ate some food took the pills and went to sleep AGAIN, by dragging all my books off the bed and causing an earthquake. i was too tired to push them properly!(temp check: rising again. 38.8) think i slept till 3, and then i was burning once more, with a temp of 39.8. funny how 1 degree makes all the difference. so the neighbour next door pass some heat absorbant patches i dunno how they work, and an ice pack. then i slept until 4:27, and i got a drink of water. around 20 seconds later my whole mouth dried up. so i drank again. and again. and i called my aunt and she gave me some advice, and i took it. took paracetamol and went to bed, at 4:55.
what a day eh. i'll post about saturday tomorrow, or the next day. im feeling very whoozy, like i walk and my legs just keep crossing each other and i walk wham bang into a wall. must be side effects of the medicine, or the temperature. and im also feeling very wierd now. can't think you know, just can't think. do you think i've become stupider because of the high temperature? that millions and billions of my brain cells have ben fried? i hope i haven't become stupider... i wouldn't live with myself. i just wouldn't live with myself. sigh. im actually feeling sad now. ok fine. leave me alone. go. shoo.
Hello
You know, recently I've been getting a lot of trouble with my father. I've been feeling very depressed. Alot of trance. Then i started reading the bible once again, helped on by my aunt.
I then felt slightly comforted, and happy, and peaceful. I think I might just become human once again. Many people still don't understand me, and don't care. I am starting to see my old self. and i don't know, whether to walk the path of Mystery, Power and phrophecy, or happiness, enjoyment and acceptence.
Mystery, Power and Phrophecy: To walk a path on my own, fighting emotion and happiness to attain sadness. Whereby in sadness once can view the world purely as it is. To have sadness is inevitable. To control sadness is to be true. For without sadness there can be no peace. Peace in this corrupt world requires sacrifice and pleasing of the enemy..which leads to sadness.
I shall go clean and fix certain items in my room. I seem to have blown my speakers adapter. no sound for me now.
Lord Help Me
Saw The Big Picture
I finally understand a little bit more into my twisted speech.
It seems, whenever that happens I fall into a slight trance and my english goes all "cheem" and i use words that i can't even recall later on. I'm obviously not in a trace now.
But then I feel those words i say or type during Trance are still important, have an impact, and still powerful. Enjoy that feeling I do. By the way I know i go all moody and stuff....
But it'll be all right. I can control my trance moods now.
Btw Thanks roy, you helped me figure this out, indirectly.
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