Tuesday, April 04, 2006

Pain
"NO"

That was the reply I got when I asked if I could skip school and see a doctor tomorrow.

I don't know what I did wrong. What did I do to offend anyone?

The back of my eyes are burning... so hot...
My stomach hurts constantly and I keep feeling like throwing up...
My hands are so cold... whenever I touch them its like... cold...
Every 5 minutes or so, a streak of pain flashes through by bones... its usually in my arms/shoulders...
My right leg hurts sooo baaad.... like ^^ that pain, except its constantly there, whenever I walk, or sit down it still hurts... and I have to limp around...
I feel like I have no energy at all.So drained. Even just getting up from my chair
Theres this headache that keeps coming and going.... coming and going...
My throat feels dry and painful... as if theres something in my throat...
The only problem is, I do not have a fever at all... the highest was 37.3 degrees, thus I cannot get dismissed from school tomorrow to see a doctor, and even if my fever is below 38 degrees, I'll merely get sent to the sick bay .

And tomorrow, is life science presentation day, that means I'll have to go to innova JC to present all the way until 6pm.
And I realize I have no cash on me.. that means bus ride/MRT home.... and 6pm, thats during the peak hours... which means standing all the way home...

Why?

What did I do?

Humans... suck...

- --| Kyros |-- wasn't missed at 11:38 PM

darkness.for.words

clipped.wings

Felix Kyros Ang Mao Ler
Banished for 17 years now
Left the Shimmering Lights Behind
Dark Angel
Twelth, of Twelth
Suffering the curse of humanity
Lust for blood

deep.desires
1. Human Rejection
2. Time
3. Freedom
4. To Leave this Cursed Land
5. My Soul
6. My Sanity (I Got This Back)
7. Of Wisdom and Lightworks

heart.felt
Lacuna Coil
Within Temptation
Evanescence
Nightwish
Elfen Lied
Epica
Death
Sorrow
Darkness
The Moon
Blood

heart.cursed
Humanity
Sunlight
Helplessness
Imcomprehension
Cruelty
Violence
Inequality

last.words
i still love you. i always have. i was banished from the light, to get caught in the middle. punished with insanity. death out of my grasp.
you never existed to care for me. you existed for me to care. and when i cried, nobody came. nobody alive. humanity is dead.
new humanity was recreated. and you punished me by making me part of it. i still cry. still nobody comes. nobody comes. nobody ever came.
and still i scream, torn apart in the battle in my own mind. the battle of two, the battle of three. nobody comes to help me, for i wish no human help.
what could humanity do but rip me further? locked in rotting flesh. destined to be punished. because of you. you who lies. you who never lived, and you who will never die.

over. ended.
all silent as the ticks of the halted hands.
i turn. i see.
the dances of grey havens, over the earth so cold
and sit, in the cries of a motherless child.

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