Tick
The same... chilling wind...
Blows upon the face of my blind heart.
I love it.
This beckoning despair.
And I wish it would never leave.
There are occurances that beget sadness, in their own respects.
There are silent tears that long to be cried, that kill me with their immense selflessness. And the guilt overpowers me.
Please don't see me.
I'm not the person you're looking for.
Really.
Comforting sadness.
The essence of my true soul.
Things have changed.
The barricading anger... the perfect hatred. Eludes me.
Oh how I wish for soothing pain.
Oh how I wish... to dream again.
What does my existance mean.
What purpose does it see to in my every breath. My every thought. My every lie.
Lie- Lie- Lie- Lie- Lie- Lie- Lie.
No. Plague me not with your unbreathing answers, for there is no human who can give anything other.
I just want to stay like this forever.
Is it so wrong?
Did I never know love?
Perhaps I came face to face with... infatuation.
Illusions of my decrypt mind.
I never knew what I truely wanted.
Still, what I want from you you can never give. Never.
Yet, undying, my emotions stay.
You... "Friends"
Betrayers in lit, shiny flesh.
I need not a human.
I only need... them.
Enough of my Etheral Blabber.
The Prelims
Does one honestly wish to know my true feelings on this matter
Perhaps you seek... to use me.
Your little tool, of which upon you will make use of to eleviate your feelings of dread. And those of doom.
YOU CARE ONLY FOR YOURSELVES.
FOOLS OF A FALLEN RACE.
Perhaps you seek misery in the depths of another.
Perhaps you seek satisfaction in the overpowering of another.
Perhaps you seek further competition.
Perhaps you seek to REASSURE YOURSELVES that at least for one STUPID insignificant human creation biased in all prospects, perhaps even biased against you, there is someone else to laugh at, someone else to put down.
CURSE YOU
CURSE YOU AND ALL THOSE OF YOUR KIND
"Because when you're miserable, you need someone else more miserable than you."
CURSE FAKE DEMOCRACIES AND THEIR EXPLOITS.
CURSE LIES AND LIES AND LIES AND LIES AND LIES AND LIES.
Choice.
What Choice.
Still time will not backflow. Time will not compromise.
Time will be your ending.
All of you wish for someone to care about you.
When you have never shown the slightest bit of concern to ANYONE but yourselves.
FOOLS
What is with the huge ego battle occuring between every individual?
What is with the pain everyone must inflict on others in order to satisfy themselves?
HAPPINESS IS A LIE.
HAPPINESS IS A BLINDING LIE.
What pain do you think you feel, pittle ones?
How can you claim to know pain, when all you've ever felt is your own tiny, insignificant ones?
Do YOU know what is evil?
It cannot be expressed in words.
There is NOBODY for you.
Not other humans. Not anyone at all. Not even god.
No. Not even god.
"Men are crazy. They cannot even create a worm, but they create gods by the dozen."
Does he really exist?
DOES HE REALLY LOVE YOU?
There is nothing in this world for me.
Why do I... still... relentlessly.... attempt to pull through?
And the clock ticks.
Tick, Tick, tick tick tick.
I smile at you, and I shall see you all recieve... your just rewards someday for your actions.
Yes, I shall see it done.
Tick Tick Tick Tick Tick.
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